Dailies

Actors monitor their performances by watching the dailies.
The best dailies are watched by no one We just live them.

We would learn so much by being able to watch our own dailies each evening. Weekly review, not even yearly or decadewide appraisal, would be sufficient. Most of the time we are so busy, so occupied with something to do.

The TV is on, the radio at least. If we have a free moment, we catch up on the unread papers or magazines. While we await the next meeting or appointment, we spend our few spare moments talking to someone on the cell phone. We have got nothing to do at home? Start cleaning. Arrange your record collection. Go for a coffee. Never stop. Fill your life with action and noise.

Feel important. Feel loved. Feel experienced. Feel busy.
Feel balanced. Feel secure. Feel happy.

What happens if we stop? Can we stop? Most of our lives we are hiding, escaping, filling the blanks by occupying ourselves. Refusing to face ourself. We look for easy fixes.

We're after feeling good. We're after happiness. The problem is that our perception of happiness changes the minute we achieve what we were after. Our object of desire and happiness shifts from item to item, never stopping. We're like hamsters in the wheel—until we decide to step out of it.To do that, we need to see the dailies first. Not many of us have found those. They are hidden to the world we know nothing about. They are too close to us. We just live them by spinning the wheel.